Calm · Before · The · Storm

So I took the plunge and went with Adam to get tattoos almost two weeks ago. I got his name in elvish on my back and he got my name in elvish on his shoulder. They look freakin' sweet. It's my first tattoo (and probably not my last). I thought it would hurt more than it did. I'll post pics soon, along with those from my Germany trip. harr.

I love him.

So, I haven't written about this yet and now I shall. When I got back into the U.S. from Germany the first thing I wanted to do after getting out of customs was check my voice mails. Adam had left me several lengthy ones as I'd hoped and in one he mentioned, "I've got another suprise for you. I won't tell you now but when I do you'll just be all, OH MY GOSSH!! You're just going to flip out." Well when I finally got to see him and asked about the big mystery, he pulled two tickets out of his wallet. I'm like, um, ok? Well they were tickets for a August 25th concert in Memphis, TN. We're going to see Breaking Benjamin, Staind, Seether, Evans Blue, 3 Days Grace, Soil and Dropping Daylight. Ok.. so maybe no one else is pumped about this, but I'm absolutely thrilled! I can't wait. Adam SO surprised me. I flipped out. There were lots of hugs and kisses and squeals of joy and excitement.

The title says it all. I'm at work and being paid $8 an hour just to warm my seat. I finished all my work this morning and the phones aren't ringing at all. So I'm being paid to do jack. I hate sitting here and watching the clock tick... tick.. tick.

I really don't have anything to put here other than the fact that working full time sucks. Remember that.

'Goodbye,' such a final word.

Why do females stress over the tiniest things? I want to leave this part of me in a closet somewhere, locked up good and tight.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder...
I hate the feelings that missing someone brings along with it.

It's been awhile since I updated, so, Happy fourth to all you americanos.

I'm counting down the days 'til I depart for Berlin, Germany. Part of me can't wait but the other can't stand the thought of being seperated from Adam for nine days. Nine days! We haven't been apart for a day since April. Ok, so I'm a bit pathetic but I'm just fine with that.

We watched the Butterfly Effect several nights ago. This was the first time I had seen it. All I have to say in response is, wow. It really made me think about how everything I do affects someone else in either a positive or negative way.

The other night Adam and I were contemplating what happens after death. Is there life thereafter? Enjoyable in heaven or tortuous in hell? What if there isn't a life after death? Do you even know that you're gone? Are you like a disembodied mind - capable of thought? Would you float around in blackness and think about how much it sucks? Or wonder where the hell you are? Or do you come back as someone/something else? In that case, would you know that you had lived a previous life? Would you still have your memories from that life? Or would they be taken from you? What happens after death?

-Commence the mushy love story-

The majority of my past few days have been spent with the most wonderful guy in the world. I don't know how to put into words how he makes me feel. He takes my breath away. We work so darn well together. We can sit and talk for hours in the park or just be content to be in each others company somewhere, anywhere. He's like nothing I've experienced before. He makes my heart flutter and skip a beat everytime he looks into my eyes. We've known each other for some time now and only been dating for a few days. But jees.. it feels like an eternity that we've been with eachother. Maybe that's because it's what we've both wanted for the longest time. All I know is that I'm falling madly in love with him. I wanted to announce that to everyone.

-hearts-

I'm so giddy right now. My stomach has been taken over by butterflies. My cousin is getting married today, congratulations to him. I've got an excuse to get all dolled up and have a fun day at the wedding, but all I can think about is the next time I get to see Adam. Which is tomorrow. It seems like tomorrow will never come.. ahh the feeling of young love. <3

I work three days every week at a pediatrician's office. I've noticed that the past few days at work have gone incredibly slow. Like slow for a slug. THAT slow. I suppose it's because I've perfected my work ethic/patterns? So I get things done much quicker and then sit and stare at the phone and wait for it to ring. I hate sitting and being paid to not do anything. That makes me feel like I'm stealing from my boss. So to avoid that feeling, I've been leaving work early, or whenever I get everything done. Today, I didn't work, and have been sitting here at home driving myself mad trying to come up with things to do. Apart from sleeping off this headache I've had for several days, I've accomplished very little. When I'm not sleeping my mind is constantly thinking about someone that's becoming very dear to me. I feel like a little girl with a crush filling out a 'check yes or no' note.

So I deleted the last entry out of shame. But for those of you that care, the issue has been resolved. Yays.

I've also learned that I am a horribly mean person. Crude, vile and evil. Wow, I never knew..

I don't have anything else. I'm suffering from an intense headache. So there's your update.

I don't really understand why final exam times have to be juggled around and switched, rather than being at the normal time when the class meets. It sort of sucks, because the majority of my finals are on Wednesday next week, and if they were just given at their normal times then they would be nicely spaced out along the whole week. Anyways, it's not so bad. I'm ready to get them out of the way.

The quote of the day is by Rachel:
"The pc gods have smited my icing."
mwha.

So I decided to make a pretty new lj. I'm glad I did too. Isn't this layout just lush? I thought so. It's really pretty and simplistic.

I've got a lot on my mind right now, hence the subject. Mainly my family. My grandfather passed away a few weeks ago, and things are so stressed. Trying to make extra trips to see my grandmother, since she now lives alone. I worry about her falling or hurting herself, and no one knowing. Plus it just gets to me to think that she's there by herself all day. She can't really drive. She hasn't really even lived alone ever in her entire life. She went from living with her parents to being married to my grandfather. So this is such a big change.

Aside from that, I've got finals coming up in a week, and all these nasty projects due this week. I can't wait for summer vacation. I'll be able to work more, and come July I get to go to Germany. So this summer should rock socks. Anyways, that's a quick recap of my past few days, and what's to come.

So this is where I make some sort of intro, right? Oh dear God. Ok, well here goes. My name is Lauren, though a select few know me as Sirius or Si. I currently reside in Mt. Vernon, Indiana. I'm majoring in Occupational Therapy at the University of Southern Indiana. I'm also the proud parent of three Border Collies; Abeni, Libby and Lex. I have a love for rats, though I don't own any at the moment. I do however have a cockatiel, named Hedwig. She's sort of a hand-me-down. My brother didn't really want her anymore, so she's my newest roomie. I enjoy drawing and scrapbooking, would love to own a horse someday and take a special interest in german culture. I'm dating an amazing guy, the love of my life. If you still want to know more about me.. Well.. I like dinosaur stickers and have an absolute fear of needles. Though I plan on getting a tattoo this summer. I dislike coffee and I tend to be paranoid about loosing certain things, like my car keys, my purse, or earrings. There you have it, me in a nut shell, almost.